That's how I role / or / roll?

I find that sometimes, I can do really amazing things without even thinking about it. Today I was making fun of myself and I used the statement "Cuz that's how I role" in an Instant Message. My friend told me I need grammar lessons. I realize that English is not my greatest subject, yet I have a point. I decided to look up the definition of "role" and "roll", of course I already know what they mean. According to Merriam Webster Dictionary Online role is defined as:

1 a (1): a character assigned or assumed role of both father and
mother> (2): a socially expected behavior pattern usually determined by an individual's
status in a particular society b: a part played by an actor or singer2: a function or part
performed especially in a particular operation or process role in the
negotiations>. (1)

Where in contrast, the word roll simply means "roll", like wheels rolling. The argument in this case becomes, is the phrase "because that's how I roll" actually in the dictionary. It is not and thus can be left to interpretation.

Since I was describing a pattern of behavior, the phrase "that's how I role" could be appropriate in that case. Whereas, if you are describing what kind of vehicle you drive, using the phrase "that's how I roll" would be suggestible. It should be noted that the ultimate authority for this phrase resides online at "Urban Dictionary.com", these phrases found on this website are consistent with street slang and/or local vernacular. Basically it's made up and accepted by the general population; therefore, no matter which way you "roll" the dice you would still get marked on English paper or otherwise for even attempting the use of such a phrase, respectfully.

This is Jay Roberts and this is how I role!


Source:

"Role - Definition of." Merriam-Webster Dictionary Online. 2009. 3 April 2009.
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Stop it...you are making me sick

I have been sick for a week now, finally I am getting over whatever the heck it is. Of course, who do I have to thank? Yes, let's see that would be you, you, you, and you. Unless of course you are like myself and don't believe in attempting to kill yourself for the purpose of writing a paper, taking a test, or going to work.

The South Dakota Department of Health has posters all over the campus, especially in the restrooms saying "If you are sick, stay home." I am in my senior year of studies and I have been sick once a semester. I understand, it happens we get sick, but take a day and lay on your couch. Your professor will surely understand, perhaps your boss will not. As far as the boss thing, screw them! No job is worth setting back the process recovery, especially in this economy when you are more than likely to get laid off anyways. If you are expendable then so are they and their needs when your needs come first.

I see people drag themselves to class coughing, sneezing, hacking, choking, throwing-up, and the list goes on ad infinitum. It is ridiculous, please stop you are making me and the rest of the world sick! So stay home!

Kiss me, I am ....

I should probably be off studying oceanography, but I decided why not ramble on for a little bit about the so called "Kiss me I'm Irish" syndrome. I haven't done the statistics on the population of Rapid City or for the rest of the United States; however, I still can't seem to figure out, why there are so many damn Irish people? If you are me or anything like me - you are confused. I realize Irish settlers were one of the first to immigrate to the United States, but are there really that many of you?

I guess it is logical to assume that over time the population grew, but exactly what percentage of Irish are you and is that relatively significant for you to celebrate a holiday such as St Patrick's Day. Most of us are muts these days, that is, unless your parents were both Irish and from what I have seen, as you Irish people drink (which Irish people do a lot of) you really don't give a flying fuck who you court.

So get over your bullshit. You are probably faux Irish anyways. You know what I mean, it's like those wood blinds, but not really wood. Oh yeah, and kiss me I am a MUT!

Who do you think you are?

I would like to know, who the hell people think they are? Over the past few months, I've noticed patterns in peoples behavior that are unusual and disturbing. For example, someone informed me the other day that "anything that is my idea probably needs help."

What the fuck is that? This is coming from a friend, at least I thought it was.

Sometime later I was mentioning a project that I was working on to obtain an injunction against anti-abortion groups that protest on street corners. I told them that while I was turning the corner I was forced to see a vile and despicable image one of the group members was holding up.

A so called friend said, "that's just stupid," and another one said "why do you have to look at them."

Okay. Well, it's like night and day with you people. I suppose only ideas that you create are good ones and nothing I do will ever amount to anything in your eyes. This is why I am considering getting rid of all of you that are negative or do not provide criticism that is the least bit constructive.

A lot of you call me dramatic. I call myself cultured and the victim of countless tragedies that have impacted my life. I hear many stories from you and not a single one has anything on my life.

You act like you know it all, but you don't. You are the resemblance of stupidity in it's utmost form. I sat back and took it for years never saying a thing and quite frankly I am sick of you judgmental assholes. I really look forward to your next judgmental comment, because it will get you tossed to the curb.

There will be no questions asked, no apologies in the future, and no tears. Do not think of planning a return into my life, as you will be sorely mistaken if you even attempt such an act.

Some of you have informed me that it is inappropriate for me to "not hang with you", or to "cut people out of my life based upon them being themselves" or whatever the hell that means. Fuck you and your bullshit. I have choices and I will make them. If I don't like your energy - poof be gone!

Another statement regarding that it was inappropriate for me to give ultimatums to friends. Ok, sure in a regular situation, but this situation is far from standard/regular. I am giving ultimatums starting today, if you offend me I will tell you. I will give you a time period in which to correct your stupidity and non-sense otherwise you are DONE.

The rules are very simple:

You will Listen to me
Don't judge me
Don't correct me in a manner that is inappropriate
Don't ask a trillion questions about a simple subject
Don't involve yourself in my business unless you are asked
Don't contradict me in front of others
Don't accuse me of shit
Act appropriately at dinner (depending on the place)


These are also "forbiddens" ignorance to this is tolerated so long as it is not blatant.

If you think you can out maneuver me here, try it. I dare you! I would really like to know
"Who do you think you are?"

Why are they all so disgusting...

Is it really a crime to want something beyond a one night stand? Why are MOST gay men so: shady, superficial, shifty, shoddy, and shitty? I find myself trapped in a cycle of illogical thoughts, which are most disturbing, that need to be answered.

On a daily basis I find myself checking out the various websites: craigslist.org, myspace.com, yahoo.com, etc,. I routinely get angered by all of the personal ad posts, as they are sexually based. Some of these posts contain language such as "ride this ass," "hot bottom for hot top," or "NSA fun only." The one time I do post an ad that is relationship oriented I get a few replies, when I did meet up with this individuals, it was no date per say. I decide to voice my concerns on the matter to my friends and receive little concern or respect; this alarms me, as they are gay.

It seems the gay community has faltered and big time at that. I hear of people in commited relationships who would actually allow a third to participate in sexual activity, this is ridiculous and disgusting. Additionally, I hear of those who will allow their partner to "do something" with "someone else," also completely outrageous! Realistically, a commited relationship defined to me: is a connection between two people romantically.

I see a systemic problem affecting the gay community today, its called "The Next Best Thing Syndrome."

The Next Best Thing Syndrome, for me relates cars or anything materialistic, generally after I buy something I find something else I want more. I find this happens especially in the gay community, you start dating someone who fits the needs at the time and when you find something else "better than" what you had you trade in your 1982 boy for one that has a birth year of 1987, because let's face it "you are still young at heart and more than likely 15 years older than this person."

Don't believe me? Do you? This is most likely because you hold yourself to this ridiculous standard and find absolutely nothing wrong with it. And should you agree, send me an e-mail we might be compatible.

Has it ever occured to you that people age? I think we all like to forget this little bit of truth, thank god for Bath and Body Works! I hear consistantly from people, "Dude I am 35, I seriously don't look my age, man." That doesn't mean you should be hitting on or picking up guys that are young enough to possibly be your son, pervert! Do the math, 35-18 = , way to young for you!

My favorite gays are the ones that get all huffy about HIV. Once again a non-realistic approach to reality.

There was a time when I was sitting in a bar with one of my good friends, we were discussing HIV positive people. I had never really got into it about HIV, full well knowing that this subject was very personal to some people. Nonetheless, I referred to someone that was HIV positive as "sick," I was verbally reprimanded by my friend. "They aren't sick, it's an epidemic" he said, I remained silent and nodded it off fearing that if I had replied my lights would be punched out. I felt like we use this word "epidemic" to cover up for our own stupid behavior. They are sick, as they have a disease.

The fact remains: while HIV is treatable, there is no cure and progression of the disease leads to death.

I am surprised by the fact that more people don't have it, of course the reply to this is "I ensure that the person I hooking up with doesn't have it by posting some letters such as D/D free UB2."

Yes, that's the answer! Why didn't I think of it sooner?

Our gay pride is an excuse to cruise and hookup with as many guys as possible. We really have no pride anymore as gay people, all we have is digusting behavior.

We want the government to grant us rights, how about let's refrain from being disgusting pigs and start practicing a little self-respect and decency.

Complexity of Relationships

My thoughts for today (02/26/09)

As I go into my second year technically being single, because all the little relationships I had really never counted, sorry to those that hurts! I reflect and examine what I see going on around me, what I see is insane....

I have noticed the following trends (on Myspace or otherwise), especially as it relates to gay folks:

• peoples status go from "Single" to "In a Relationship"
• people also go from "In a Relationship" to "Single" within a month
• of course this is well after the "long term commitment" of exactly about a month and/or mainly less to be exact
• Upon transforming from "Single" to "In a Relationship" they post a status message giving everyone a chance to see their new found "glory hole" before they fall straight on their face, either realizing they entered something too big for their britches or that this person isn't so great
• Of course, thereafter, they are then depressed, hungover, or moody - because of this person not full well realizing it was their own stupidity that got them into this mess in the first place.
• I suppose opposites attract, however, if you are polar opposite there must be something besides the "personality change" to actually attract you. Being attracted to the size of the meat is insufficient and will fail at best.
• Although you have known someone, you don't know them until you live with them, so take it slow! It won't be a "hard on" kill if you do not.
• Just because you find someone that meets your ocular expectations - do not assume it was meant to be or that you are the deepest of love. If you do this, you should jump of a bridge and kill yourself.
• My favorite - people go Engaged to Single and back to Engaged. Geez! And I thought I was the one who needed help.

Yes, I know - I am right. There is nothing you can do about it.